Once again, the topic of Anne's relationship with her parents is discussed in her diary. She has unintentionally hurt her mother's feelings by refusing to say her prayers with her (because Anne's father cannot do so that night). Anne tries to reason with herself, feeling sorry for her mother, yet she refuses to apologize for saying what she considered to be the truth at the time about how she felt. Anne states quite clearly that her mother has alienated her with her "tactless remarks and crude jokes, which I don't find at all funny" (April 2, 1943). Later, that same month, Anne lists her quarrels with her mother as just one of the various clashes going on amongst all the members of the group, adding that "everyone is angry with everyone else" (April 27, 1943). At that time, the Allied air raids were increasing in intensity, and Anne writes, "We don't have a single quiet night. I've got dark rings under my eyes from lack of sleep." In addition, the shortage of food is beginning to be even more acute although in her following entry (May 1, 1943), Anne reminds herself: ". . . it is a paradise compared with how other Jews who are not in hiding must be living."
Nevertheless, despite her realization that their situation is better than that of many other Jews, Anne is horrified by the drastic decline of their own standards. The comfortable life which they had lived beforehand, and even, to some extent, in the "Secret Annexe" has declined rapidly. Their former life contrasts starkly with the privations which they are suffering now, ranging from a lack of food, to the inability to change their sheets, or even to renew their diminishing stock of underwear. The nightly air raids continue, and Anne prepares a suitcase with the basic things she would need if she had to escape, though she realizes, at her mother's prompting, that there would be nowhere for her to escape to — absolutely nowhere.
